life update

[saturnalias]

winter is here and it is hell

i'm somewhere between terrifyingly calm and going insane each day. i wake up and i throw a dart to decide if today is going to be the day i descend into madness or if i'll just bake cookies and pick up flowers.

my throat is sore and my nose is a bit runny and i hate the feeling of being pre-sick. winter in my parents' town is fucking hell. i fear i have become too much of a big-city-girlie and now im not able to handle temperatures belowe 15°C. here, every day is below 3°C.

holidays are holidaying a bit much and i had an almost-but-not-quite panic attack yesterday when i signed up for my grammar ii final exam + my second semester classes. i haven't started studying yet (only sat down and organized the contents) and i will possibly flunk this exam but we are not going for the best grade here, we are going for the passing grade. and speaking of second semester classes, there are a lot, i will practically be living in uni for the next four???five??? months. (writing that made me realise i need to start looking into other living options because my lease is up next march and like everything else in this country, apartment prices have gone to shit)

i have three (3) birthdays this week, and like a thousand plans: 1 english class to teach, 1 birthday afternoon tea reunion, movie function with my friends (IAMSEEINGBARBIE ⌒‿⌒ [guy who was planning on wearing their cuntiest outfit but now has to rethink it bc of the cold]), picnic with some of my friends <3 a bday party (for which i will be using the cuntiest outfit ever and will probably get insanely drunk), a festival to protect a local green area and literally fight the government against illegal shit that will manage to destroy the ecosystem, fuck up people's lives by literally flooding 2 entire neighbourhoods and fill rich people's pocket with more money.

i am beyond excited about it.